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My name is Sathiyyah, but ppl call me Tai or Tiyyah. I like to think of myself as a fine young lady and a scholar. I'm almost a 23 year-old SENIOR (woo hoo). I am a Communications Media major with a concentration in Public Relations. I would like to one day become an ad copywriter with a gig making super bowl commercials. I am originally from Harlem, but I now stay in Maryland. I can be a bit shy sometimes, but lately ppl think I'm outgoing. I love meeting new ppl and learning about different places and cultures. I'm a girl who is into learning....big time. I enjoy chilling with friends, dining out, amusement parks, museums, musicals, music as a whole (motown is the best!) I love the Temptations and The Jackson 5. I am open to meeting new ppl. I dislike irresponsible adults, disorganization in the workplace, conformity, drugs and anything that does not edify the name of Christ. I am in no way perfect, just flesh and blood trying to be for Christ.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Raindrops Are Falling on My Head

"I hate when someone tries to analyze everyone else's life, negating the gray areas in their own rainbows."-Me



The previous quote was one of my many facebook statuses today. If there's one thing that really gets on my nerves, it's when people think that they know my life. All people judge one another, as much as we don't like to admit it. If not, there would be no preferences of spouses. Am I lying? As soon as we see people, our minds begin to think about: "her outfit is nice/not too cute", "he looks like a...", or "she looks different from how so and so described her". The funny thing is that we speak as though every thing is just peachy in our own lives.
I know my life is far from perfect and there is still a lot of maturing I am going to do in my lifetime. However, I think that people need to learn their place. Just because you have an opinion does not mean that your opinion is important to me. I usually give people I love a chance to express genuine concerns regarding my life. However, if we are fair weather friends, I do not expect you to give me "advice" about aspects of my life that may be sensitive to talk about. If you are saying things in love, I am most likely to receive it well. It's much too bad that it usually comes in a "My life is better than yours" way.
I think the reason that this gets me upset is because I have really started relying on God before I make my decisions, down to the littlest of things. My decisions are no longer my own, so when people say that they disagree with a decision I've made, it's like they're dissing the steps God has ordered specifically for me. People also forget that because we are all in different walks of life, their remedies might not work. The only thing that I can confirm is universal is Christ's love, His word, His blood, His grace and mercy. All else doesn't really matter if it isn't based on these. This is just my mindset.
Another thing that ticks me off is that the people pointing the finger are the most jacked-up at the times they point their nasty little un-manicured fingers at my life. Perhaps this is the reason why they look to bring others down. I have also realized that the people who want to be the advisors in my life, are usually the ones who look for human advocates to explain God's plan to them. Since they have surrendered their control over their actions to the approval if this advocate, they are looking for other people to control. Unfortunately, I am not the one. I love guidance from people who truly desire the spirit to lead them in their own lives. I have a really hard time allowing people to give me guidance, if they don't allow God (not the pastor or mentor alone) to direct their own paths.
I don't want to keep on ranting, but I am really fed up with people trying to put my life "on-blast" based on things they clearly know nothing about. My relationship with God is mine and no one else's. It's something special between the two of us. I can't explain how he's moving in my life. I'd love for you to try to understand it, but I'll admit it's complex. God is not like man. I understand that his visions for our lives, are so great we can barely wrap our minds around it. So, until my destiny is revealed...KEEP YOUR COMMENTS TO YOURSELF OR FORWARD THEM TO THE ALMIGHTY CREATOR. I live to please Him and Him alone. I made a vow to be obedient, despite what you or others may think. Consider this, maybe the clouds in your own rainbow are the reason you'd like to rain on my parade...



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