New me...and not because it's '09 either

Well, I created this blog in '08 as a way to vent, but after much thought I've decided to just talk. I'm going to talk about things that I want to say, but maybe can't always find the words to say it verbally. I'm going to talk about the things that I maybe shouldn't say directly to someone, because they may not be able to handle it.
My inspiration for this comes from a facebook group I started in '06. In the group, my friends and I discussed a controversial topic each day. It was a forum for anyone to discuss their beliefs and ideas, and only be judged by each other. Any comment was allowed, as long as you could back it up.
I must admit, that my true colors are sometimes shown better when my words are written, as opposed to spoken. For example, I have a friend (Hey Rob) who didn't think I was that deep, until he joined my fb group. Now we talk all the time!! haha. I know sometimes he must think I talk to much. It's w/e though lol. I like getting my opinions out and I have a passion for listening to others. (My mom would totally disagree).
To explain the title of my blog, I have to give you a bit of history. My family and I are S.D.A. christians. We worship on the seventh day, or Sabbath. On friday nights, the beginning of sabbath, we have a family worship. Breaking tradition, my father asked me to lead out. I had no idea what I was going to do, ecause I really wanted it to be something that reflected me.
I logged onto facebook for some reason. You may say I as procrastinating, and I would say, you're right. haha. Through my procrastination, though, I was inspired!! Yeah, Facebook inspired me. I keep seeing status changes, and people who made new year's resolutions. Honestly, how many of your friends have this same satus every year, "New year, New me"? I'm so sick of seeing that, and the poeple never change. By new, I think many of them think that they will be better because they're conforming to what the media portrays is good. I know this may sound ironic coming from someone who is aspiring to become this "media". However, I still understand that God doesn't want us to aspire to be like that although we are living in this world.
I kept looking for a verse to base my worship service around, and then I GOT IT!! Romans 12:2-8 I think. "And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect" I know we're not supposed to rub it in people's faces that we are exposed to knowledge, but I have to say DUH to this one. lol The progress of sanctification, dying to sin more and more, and living to righteousness more and more, is the carrying on this renewing work, till it is perfected in glory. The conflict to this renewal is, conformity to this world. We must be cautious of making plans for happiness, as though our hapiness depends on the things here on Earth, which isn't going to last for much longer. We shouldn't try to be like the people who deliberately lust, and worry about Earthly treasures.
I know I'm far from perfect, but I see every day as an opportunity to get back on the right track. Although God's still working on me, I try to do the best I can each day. A lot of the disgust towards certain people are gone. I'm going to love them now, and love them hard. I'm going to take better care of my family and friends too. I'll keep in touch and see how they are dooing. I'll make a better effort to spend time praying and in the scriptures. I really want to be a new me. I think some people are right when they say that you'll understand things when you get older...I've learned so much already, and I'm looking forward to even more in years to come!
In other news, I've been having a great break! I've been resting, eating healthier, enjoying company, spending time with my family, and just getting back to the REAL Tai. Not that I've ever changed, but I hid myself from the public for a while until I got some things straight. At this point of my life, with all I am trying to get over, I know I must part ways with an old habit I had. Now I'm going to really start looking into what my heart wants and what God wants for me, rather than what my eyes see. That got me into a lot of trouble in '08. Trust me, if you thought I was great in '08...I'm doing fine in '09. cliches but I'm too blessed to be stressed lol...but in order to prove that,I gotta stop thinking by myself. They say make God your co-pilot...haha no, he can take the wheel because he knows the plane better than I do, he created it! I think God has some blessings just for me and I'm claiming them. It's what I gotta do....I'm out!