I am literally sitting in my family room and I'm blushing. I have no idea why I am. Psych! I'm totally lying to myself. I know why I am. I just don't really want to spill the beans. There I go fibbing again. I to want to spill the beans, but I probably shouldn't. I just feel so overwhelmed with emotion though, I want to make sure I'm not rambling when I write lol. (I probably still will)
So yesterday a close(r) friend of mine came to visit. This has been going on since last week, but I enjoy his company. It's just really honest to goodness fun. He whooped me in Wii bowling and I was a bit blown that he did that in MY house lol. It was okay despite that because I was spending time with him. I mean, hanging out and having a good conversation are always good!! I really enjoy myself when he's around.
We've been friends for a few years now, but it still isn't a really long time. Over the years I've began to see different characteristics of him that are pretty cool. Thinking about that makes me wonder how people see me on a day to day basis. I know that a few people think I have some type of alter ego, and I really don't want them to think that. I'm not Beyonce/Sasha Fierce. I'm just Tai. People think that when I'm in Sathiyyah mode, I'm the classy, more lady-like, student who takes life seriously. When I'm in Tai mode, I'm more laid back, tomboyish, with an "I don't care attitude" lol. My friends really do crack me up. I act like a combination of all of those things...All of the time. Of course people act differently behind closed doors....right? No, maybe it's just me.
To me, those are the intimate moments when we are truly ourselves. We are alone with ourselves and God. God already knows us, so we're not shoking him at all. We're so worried about our reputation all of the time, that we sometimes forget about our character. I was on FB again (I know lol) and a friend of my mom's had a status that I really like. It says, "Take care of your character and your reputation will take care of itself" It's so true, though. The thing about character is that it's one of the few things in life that absoluteley no one will ever be able to take away from you. We sometimes allow others to tell us who we should or shouldn't be, when it really isn't their place to say. They can't live our lives for us, we must make our own choices. I'm not saying that guidance is bad... It's good to learn from our mistakes, but we don't always need to make mistakes in order to learn. These stories help us to prevent having to go through their footsteps.
Although the previous is true, remember that your character is unique. It may not match with any body else. So do not try it lol. Build it on the basis of your own intuition. Giving yourself a once over now and again may work, but don't sweat the small stuff or the criticism of your failures. Stand firm on your convictions and keep God in the midst. You are on the road to success!
Today, I also found myself surfing the insight magazine website and found one of Shayna Bailey's videos. I always like her videos because they're a tad bit funny, but very much true. Check her stuff out and let me know what you think!